sick for 10 days now!!!

Just an update. I have been sick for 10 days now - it is a tummy bug without throwing up (thank you Jesus). I have lost lots of fluids and have been feeling weak. I sweat easily. So I have been in bed or on the coach. It is getting better since yesterday but in baby baby baby steps. I might need to take antibiotics if it does not get better better soon. However I do dread anitbiotics because I know what impact it has on my system normally (it totally drags all energy out of me that I have left...so I don't wat to take them...only as a last resort).

My constant companion has been Romeo, giver of such love. I don't take it for granted and am tahnkful for that little snuggle ball

I rely on God and practice to TRUST HIM :)

A Tree of Righteousness – a Planting of the Lord

2 weeks ago, a lady died in our church. I was part of a team that went and had ministered to her previously because her husband had just died 3 weeks prior. She had told her daughter what she wanted me to have. I was honoured and humbled and too touched for words. How? I had only known her for 4 months? Among the things she wanted me to have was a tree.. like an ornament. Some of the street sellers here make them. They look really beautiful and I have been looking at them every once in a while.
Now I own one. It makes me thing of that lady that is with Jesus now. Here is a picture of it.

And this is what I am thinking when I look at :

I want to be a tree of righteousness, a planting of the Lord. I want to have strong roots and I want to bear good fruit . I want to be consistent and of strength that is not my own. As the tree takes the strength from the water in the ground, I want to take my strength from God and God alone.

I want to be known as a tree of righteousness, a planting of the Lord.

That is my prayer and that is what I think of when I my eyes rest on this tree that someone I barely knew gave to me before she died. WOW!

" Today is a GOOD day "

I don't know how to name this blogpost. Today is a good day.....yes ...this is how I should start this post. Today is a good day. I wonder why because the last 8 days have not been good days per se.
The last days have been filled with confusion, comdemnation, wasting of time, feeling overwhelmed and overly tired, with little focus and too many thoughts in my heaon my mind.
Whenever something like this happens, I immediately suspect one thing: a depressive phase coming up. I blogged about the bipolar condition I have been suffering from a few blog posts back.
I want to learn and heal. I know that God is sovereign and HE has healed me already in so many ways. His healing process often is gradually.
So there I was now last week: it was hard to focus even with little tasks. The thoughts in my mind were of a comdemning nature and even praying was hard. I didn't like it. I realised I need to go for a blood test again to see if my medication is right. But all in all, I surrendered to God, knowing that HE KNOWS, running to HIM into HIS arms.

Then comes today......and today is so different. I wake up early and have no problem getting up. I have a good time in God's word and I do enjoy my work. What a difference from yesterday to today. I have observed HIS favor over me in those last days....in little detailed things and it made me so so thankful, so so grateful. I know that when I am weak HE IS STRONG, HE is at work and HE KNOWS.
I will still have my blood checked this week.
And I take refuge in HIM who is able even when I am so not able.

Pictures like this let me feel at peace......