ShiningLight: " Today is a GOOD day "

BEYOND MEASURE

"OUR DEEPEST IS NOT THAT WE ARE INADEQUATE.
OUR DEEPEST FEAR IS THAT WE ARE POWERFUL BEYOND MEASURE. IT IS OUR LIGHT, NOT OUR DARKNESS, THAT MOST FRIGHTENS US.
WE ASK OURSELVES: WHO AM I TO BE BRILLIANT, GORGEOUS, TALENTED, FABULOUS? ACTUALLY, WHO ARE YOU NOT TO BE?
YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD. YOUR PLAYING SMALL DOES NOT SERVE THE WORLD.
THERE IS NOTHING ENLIGHTENED ABOUT SHRINKING SO THAT OTHER PEOPLE WON'T FEEL INSECURE AROUND YOU. WE ARE ALL MEANT TO SHINE, AS CHILDREN DO.
WE WERE BORN TO MAKE MANIFEST THE GLORY OF GOD IN US. IT'S NOT JUST SOME OF US. IT'S IN EVERYONE.
AND AS WE LET OUR LIGHT SHINE, WE UNCONSCIOUSLY GIVE OTHER PEOPLE PERMISSION TO DO THE SAME. AS WE ARE LIBERATED FROM OUR OWN FEAR, OUR PRESENCE AUTOMATICALLY LIBERATES OTHERS"

(Marianne Williamson - and quoted by Nelson Mandela 1994 at his inauguration!

Monday, March 05, 2012

" Today is a GOOD day "

I don't know how to name this blogpost. Today is a good day.....yes ...this is how I should start this post. Today is a good day. I wonder why because the last 8 days have not been good days per se.
The last days have been filled with confusion, comdemnation, wasting of time, feeling overwhelmed and overly tired, with little focus and too many thoughts in my heaon my mind.
Whenever something like this happens, I immediately suspect one thing: a depressive phase coming up. I blogged about the bipolar condition I have been suffering from a few blog posts back.
I want to learn and heal. I know that God is sovereign and HE has healed me already in so many ways. His healing process often is gradually.

So there I was now last week: it was hard to focus even with little tasks. The thoughts in my mind were of a comdemning nature and even praying was hard. I didn't like it. I realised I need to go for a blood test again to see if my medication is right. But all in all, I surrendered to God, knowing that HE KNOWS, running to HIM into HIS arms.

Then comes today......and today is so different. I wake up early and have no problem getting up. I have a good time in God's word and I do enjoy my work. What a difference from yesterday to today. I have observed HIS favor over me in those last days....in little detailed things and it made me so so thankful, so so grateful. I know that when I am weak HE IS STRONG, HE is at work and HE KNOWS.
I will still have my blood checked this week.
And I take refuge in HIM who is able even when I am so not able.