ShiningLight: 2 thoughts: gold and trust

BEYOND MEASURE

"OUR DEEPEST IS NOT THAT WE ARE INADEQUATE.
OUR DEEPEST FEAR IS THAT WE ARE POWERFUL BEYOND MEASURE. IT IS OUR LIGHT, NOT OUR DARKNESS, THAT MOST FRIGHTENS US.
WE ASK OURSELVES: WHO AM I TO BE BRILLIANT, GORGEOUS, TALENTED, FABULOUS? ACTUALLY, WHO ARE YOU NOT TO BE?
YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD. YOUR PLAYING SMALL DOES NOT SERVE THE WORLD.
THERE IS NOTHING ENLIGHTENED ABOUT SHRINKING SO THAT OTHER PEOPLE WON'T FEEL INSECURE AROUND YOU. WE ARE ALL MEANT TO SHINE, AS CHILDREN DO.
WE WERE BORN TO MAKE MANIFEST THE GLORY OF GOD IN US. IT'S NOT JUST SOME OF US. IT'S IN EVERYONE.
AND AS WE LET OUR LIGHT SHINE, WE UNCONSCIOUSLY GIVE OTHER PEOPLE PERMISSION TO DO THE SAME. AS WE ARE LIBERATED FROM OUR OWN FEAR, OUR PRESENCE AUTOMATICALLY LIBERATES OTHERS"

(Marianne Williamson - and quoted by Nelson Mandela 1994 at his inauguration!

Monday, September 17, 2012

2 thoughts: gold and trust

Hi everyone...or Hi to the one who actually still reads or follows my blog. I have not been really faithful to writing this year. I apologize. Today, I realized that I just have to MAKE the time and I will try to blog again for frequently. It will be a lot about impressions of my work here in South Africa, about thoughts and feelings and also about my walk with Jesus. Just as it has been.

Today I want to share 2 thoughts with you.

1) The first one takes me back to March of this year. I wrote in my journal that Jesus gave me a picture that morning. And here goes the picture..or scene for a lack of a better word:

I was sitting with Jesus and I had a pretty heavy heart. Jesus said to me: take your burdens and your fears and give them to me. Well, that was not a new concept to me and I gave Him my burdens and my fears. As I watched Him take them, they actually turn into golden balls in His hands and then I was so overwhelmed looking at HIS facial expressions. He seemed so careful with my burdens and fears. Unbelievable. Then Jesus said: My love, don't you know that even your fears and burdens are PRECIOUS to me? I have been meditating on that statement from my Lord this week. It is truly overwhelming but I am so thankful. From time to time, fears can overwhelm me and my heart is very heavy. I am so glad He reminded me this week of HIS love, HIS mercy and HIS favour over me. IN CHRIST I am the righteousness of God!

I did not want to make this blog post about me and yet I love to share what God is telling and how that actually changes something in my heart.

I have been on the mission field for 4 ½ years. This is my life and there are so so so many wonderful things about it. I hope I make a change in people's lives in touching them with Christ's love. And so often I battle with myself.

The second thought comes from my first year here in Cape Town. Jesus explained TRUST to me. See I love to make an acronym out of a word. So Jesus gave me the content to the word T.R.U.S.T. And here it goes: T. stands for TAKING A STEP back, R. stands for RESTING IN HIS PEACE, U. stands for UNDERSTANDING GOD'S POSITION AND MINE IN THIS, S. stands for STAYING AND MEDITATING ON THIS THOUGHT, and the final T. stands for TOTAL SURRENDER. Trust is a big issue and it comes back into my life again and again. Oh how little I trust God!

I am so glad that I can come to God with my burdens and fears...and I can come to HIM with my doubts. The battle is half won when I have identified what's wrong.