TRAPPED

TRAPPED/LOST in some way The picture I put on here inspired me when I found it online. Look at those 12 little ones trapped in that bucket. Trapped. Trapped is how I have been feeling this week. It is a feeling of being lost in some sort of way. I still know who I am and I know who my Father and my Savior is. Yet I am processing very good things that need to reach my heart instead of only my brain. I feel trapped in a circle of events that seem to always happen in the same way. I am glad that my feelings do not reflect God’s reality for HE is with me and HE is my lighthouse as HE told me today. He will shed more light and HE will help me grow in this, HE will light the way for me. Only with HIS help I can get out of this trap that past hurt and experiences have opened up for me. Do you feel trapped in any area or any way? KSB

Bits

I thought I'd blog a bit. There is a lot to blog about...today I chose to bring some bits here and there together for one post. The internet works very differently here. You buy 1 Gigabyte for a month. Downloading updates takes a lot of space...downloads in general do. Watching online messages from East Hill or watching videos, little clips is nearly impossible for it it really takes a up a lot of that 1 Gigabyte. It is not like in the US where you have unlimited internet access. Even in Europe this is different. I find myself limited by that every once in a while. I am very pensive these days, trying to prepare myself. I am challenged to go deeper in the Bible and I feel overwhelmed quite often. It is a feeling of being under too much volt during the day..... I am thankful for a lot though

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I am blessed by having this couple as my friends. YOu can see them in the big picture of the Start of this blog: Nadine and Innocent. If you have followed my adventures here in Cape Town, you know that they are a big part of my life, specifically since last year August. She gave birth to a healthy little baby girl called Jamie a month ago. I posted Jamie's entering this world 4 weeks ago. Today we blessed the mom by giving her a bubble bath. Jamie was good during that time and it is true: there is nothing like a baby in my arm, a baby that looks into my eyes (I know she cannot really see well yet...), or a baby that is sleeping. There are no words for the peace that I am feeling. My heart aches for a baby of my own... I am ready I know it.I am sad for all the babies I cannot hold ...the babies of all my friends in Germany and the States. I would love to be there right now. Anyway, just wanted to talk a bit about babies...and post some pics, too