The butterfly on the hard ground....

This is how I am feeling ...a butterfly ...on the stony and hard ground..the beautiful butterfly that seems to be without orientation...trying to find some green and lively pastures and some colorful flowers..just some LIFE instead of hard ground around...I am describing my feelings which are different from the facts and from my faith. However, they seem to overshadow my world today. I am leading more these days, leading in the area of my anointing and I can feel the resistance. I can feel my vulnerability. I can see : The fact is I am a butterfly, the faith confirms it. But then I feel lost and overwhelmed and just tired or easily irritated. I am taking care of myself now and tomorrow and specially on friday, that is my day :) My Dear Lord, I love you, I so love you and I am so glad that you are excited about me and that you are intersted in how I am doing every second of the day. Please protect my heart soul and mind, my vulnerable state of being today and hem me in dear beloved Jesus! Show me the green pastures around me and the beautiful colorful flowers..I am sick of looking at the hard ground around me!!!